Crushed

She sat comfortably behind the glass, watching him powerfully glide across the ice, joking with the boys. She smiled softly, goofily, even let a giggle escape her lips as he sent Evengi tumbling head over heels at center ice. Not hard of course. She quickly covered her mouth as she heard herself.

“Wow...” Her best friend, since moving to Pittsburgh, Vero, laughed gently. “You've got it bad girl...”

“I can't have it bad, V. He's my best friend.... He's my Jordan. My Jay... My...” She sighed sadly. “I can't love him.”

“Can't and don't are two very different things, Katie. And it's possible. You and Jordan have been together for a very long time.” Katie shot her a very dirty look and she held up her hands in defense. “Friends, you two have been together AS FRIENDS, for a very long time. It's not surprising that there would be feelings there.” Katie sighed as her friend gave her shoulder a pat, standing to head down to the locker rooms, to claim her own significant other.

Katie lifted her gaze to the ice to find her eyes locked with his crystal blues. He blushed softly, having been caught and waved shyly. She smiled softly and waved back.

“You be having fun?” Her glance was torn from Jordan's to see Evengi standing at the hallway, where they could talk without glass blocking their conversation.

“Umm.. yah, Geno, I am having fun.” She smiled, finding herself endeared to his broken accent.

“You are belonging to Staalzy?” She laughed out right at the forwardness of his question.

“No... Jordan and I are just friends....” Her gaze moved magnetically to Jordan still standing at the other end of the ice, pretending to talk to Max and Sid, but really sending daggers at Evengi as the two stood uncomfortably conversing on the stands.

“I take you for eating?” She tore her eyes away from Jordan to look into Evengi's chocolate brown eyes.

“Oh, Geno, I'm sorry... I'm not really... I uh...” She shifted her gaze uncomfortably to her red Chucks and blushed in shame as he sighed sadly.

“Is okay. I am understanding.” He smiled sadly, bravely, before turning back towards the locker rooms.

“Geno, are we still friends?” She asked timidly, looking up at him through her eyelashes. His smile turned quickly to a bright, happy one.

“Yes. Friends.” She smiled leaning over and kissing his cheek.

“Thanks, Geno. That means the world to me.” She whispered before turning and heading out the the parking lot to wait for Jordan.

From the ice Jordan watched the whole interaction and decided he really didn't like the fact that Geno was hitting on his girl. Well... Not his girl per sey... But his. His best friend. She couldn't date Geno. She just couldn't. Watching her lean in and kiss his cheek almost sent him over there in a blind fury.

“Wow... Jordy.” Max called grabbing onto his arm. “What's the matter, big guy?”

“Kate's talking to Geno.” Sid responded nonchalantly.

“Shut up, man! She shouldn't be giving him the time of day.” Jordan steamed.

“Umm... Why not? Didn't she just dump that loser she was with?” Max innocently asked. Jordan's two friends watched as his eyes slowly went from Geno to Katie, walking out, to his skates. “Holy SHIT! You love her!”

“No I don't!” He adamantly spat. “I don't want a relationship. I'm 19 and in the NHL and could have any girl in the world. And I want to play. I want to be able to go out and pick up a chick whenever I want to.”

“And you don't think she loves you back.” Sid observed causing Jordan's gaze to snap up to his, glaring his stormed off the ice to clean up before heading out to his truck.

True to her word, Katie was there, leaning against the truck, looking... Well... To Jordan, pretty damned sexy. But that was just it. They were best friends. He couldn't screw that up by dating her. Plus, as sexy as she was, he knew it could never work. They weren't good that way together.

“Hey, dude.” She grinned scuffing the asphalt with her Chuck Taylors. “Good practice?” He shrugged before unlocking the door for her.

“Wasn't bad, I guess.” He climbed in behind the wheel and started the truck up. “What did Geno want?”

“Me, I guess... Whatever, it's not going to happen anyways. I'm head over heels for this guys who's going to rip my heart out and completely break me anyways.” She smiled sadly, staring out the windshield.

“Good.” Jordan stated firmly turning his own eyes back to the road. “Kate...”

“Yah, Jay?” She perked up, turning completely towards him, hopeful.

“Uhh... I'm glad you came out today.” He turned his head slightly to send her a small smile before turning back to the road.

The rest of the trip to her apartment was deadly silent except for the radio, playing what might as well have been her song. She softly sung along with the words.

Oh No it's bad
Got me feeling so weak when you're holding my hand
You smile I die
Cause I don't wanna feel what I'm feeling inside
It's to much, it's to late
I'm so into you

I'd be crushed
If you walked away
I'd be lost
I'd be drowning in gray
I'd be wounded beyond repair
If you weren't there
I'd be crushed

I swore
I would be in control of myself
What have you done with me
Your lips (your lips)
My skin (my skin)
I don't know where you end
And where I begin
I hate you
But I love you
So don't ever leave

I'd be crushed
If you walked awayI'd be lost
I'd be drowning in gray
I'd be wounded beyond repair
If you weren't there
I'd be crushed

You got me falling
And I never wanted to feel like I do
I'm so into you

Oh No
It's bad

CRUSHED!

If you walked awayI'd be lost
I'd be drowning in gray
I'd be wounded beyond repair
If you weren't there

CRUSHED!

I'd be lost
I'd be drowning in gray
I'd be wounded beyond repair
If you weren't there!

Yeeaaahhh
I'd be crushed
Oh No Oh No
(performed by Lesley Roy)

As he pulled up in front of her building he turned slightly towards her. “Don't let that creep hurt you, Kate Kat. You deserve so much more than to be hurt again.” Katie turned to him, her eyes full of tears and a sad smile on her face.

“Sometime you can't help who you love, Jay.” She whispered before climbing out of his truck and slowly walking into her building.